I will not die an unlived life I will not live in fear of falling Or of catching fire I choose to inhabit my days To allow my living to open me Making me less afraid More accessible To loosen my heart So that it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise I choose to risk my significance. To live so that that which comes to me as seed Goes to the next as blossom And that which comes to me as blossom Goes on as fruit. --Donna Markova

Monday, February 02, 2004

Sorry I'm not home right now
I'm walking into spiderwebs
So leave a message
And I'll call you back...

Anyway, Four things to get down real quick like (although, it's not like I've got somewhere else to be seeing as we're practically snowed in here!)
1) New classes = AHHHHHHHHH!
2) Starting (another) diet
3) Superbowl party at Sina's = cool

I'll elaborate later, but right now I'm focusing on going stir crazy. - Katie

Sunday, February 01, 2004

Conversations

How is it that when you're talking w/ different people you feel a varying degree of need to carry the conversation? It's like there are people that I enjoy talking to b/c the conversation just flows along and I don't feel pressured to talk if there's silence and all that. Then there are other people that, though I love them to death, it's hard to talk to. You feel like you have to carry the conversation b/c they're so focused on you and what you think, say, or do. I think that being w/ people who are secure in who they are and who they are to you is so much easier b/c you're never afraid taht when someone stops talking it's b/c there's nothing left for you to have in common or to discuss but b/c they may just be thinking. And that's fine. And sometimes you don't feel like going to hang out w/ the people taht it's hard to talk to b/c you have to carry the entire conversation and if you really wanted to just talk to yourself there's always a mirror handy. That came out harsh, but you know what I mean. Anyway, that was a random thought. - Katie

The Days Pass--Dying Without Recognition

My computer is all screwed up...I think we have/had a virus so I haven't been able to get on for a couple of days. Life in general is...normal. I'm glad we're getting new classes tomorrow, but I'll miss the friends in the one's I have now. Work is annoying, but what can you do?

I realized today that life passes by without us noticing. I mean, I don't think we should count seconds and minutes and hours b/c that's not the point. We'd all be either miserably unhappy or insane if we constantly kept track of how much time is slipping by us. On the other hand, I think that you shouldn't let yourself put things off b/c they never get done. Days end w/o anything happening except rescheduling the things you should have done for the next day. A cycle forms and before you know it you're moving in place. Running, trying to keep ahead of just that last deadline that keeps looming and then falling behind and then looming again. I'm not really going anywhere w/ this...just rambling. Anyway, I'm killing time before I head over to Sina's for Superbowl, what is it?, 38, I think. Talk to you all later...well, talk AT you all later, I guess is more appropriate. -Katie