I will not die an unlived life I will not live in fear of falling Or of catching fire I choose to inhabit my days To allow my living to open me Making me less afraid More accessible To loosen my heart So that it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise I choose to risk my significance. To live so that that which comes to me as seed Goes to the next as blossom And that which comes to me as blossom Goes on as fruit. --Donna Markova

Monday, May 24, 2004

"Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down."

Running away from myself / Dragging myself back again / Where's the joy / Why the temptation?

Are the seeds of self destruction within everyone? I'm beginning to think that they must be. How else are we to account for the myraid ways in which we are passive-agressive towards ourselves? We know what we should do...that's not the hard part despite all the debate on current cultural morality. That hard part is following through. I mean, how great would it be if you could trust in someone's word unequivocally (sp?).

I think it would be hard, but not impossible, to be a person like that. That hardest part, for me, would be saying no. To be someone whose word is bankable would require you to say no when you know that you're not going to be able to do what is being asked of you. A thought. I kind of want to be one of those people but I wonder if our society has made such morality/codes of honor obsolete in some ways...it's that much harder to be that person b/c the societal consequences for failure are minimal.

Just a thought.