Random Journal Topics From Sunday

Guys, this is from my blue journal virtually word for word w/ a few embellishments. I mean, some of it is a little embarassing, but I thought since my entire life is about to snowball on my anyway, I'd get this out there...why feel normal when you could be stressed, confused and embarassed?

I want a freakin' guy, but I don't want to just reandomly get a boyfriend b/c I want one. I just want to find a decent guy that I like. Either they're far to scarce or my standards are too high, but either way it's rather frustrating. This other side of me doesn't want to start anything b/c it invariable has to end before we go off to school and i don't want to mess w/ that.

The newness of things--we're always searching for one high after the next--gets us through life, but i wonder how it applies to relationships. Sina was saying the othe day that if you think about it ever single other relationship in your life will end except, ideally, marriage--but why would marriage be anomoly, the one time you fall in love and it finally lasts? Is it always a search for the next new thing? Is this why so many marriages fail? I love my family to death, but I'm ready to go away to school...I'm ready for a new life.

Lunch w/ Kyle--he's really got this gift of making you fell better about your problems even when you don't feel like you had those problems. Does that make sense?

Sat. night was fun--shirts and nail polish--snacks and movies (chick flicks). I love girls nights...there's so little pretense.

What do you do, how do you react when someon w/ you is feeling messed up, but they're right there and you don't know how to reach out and grab them and help them through it or if they'll even want help.

Agreeable seperation--people can still be friends when they're not each other's very best friend all the time. Is it better to have one great and true friend or three that you are pretty close w/? One, I think, hands down.

People who say, "When life hands you lemon, make lemonade." don't know waht they're talking about . God would never give you something as mundane and simple as lemons. No, God would give you a lemon, an avacado, a hotdog, and a tomato and tell you to make something out of it. That's life. There are a million ways you could make somethig w/ the ingreadients you're given and when you think you've finally found the perfect thing, it seems like God changes the ingredients you get. That's why life is so great. No one wants lemonade every day.

When we read things or hear things about how guys/girls interact, we read more into it than we do in person. How the heck are we supposed to figure each other out if we can't figure ourselves out?

Later, Katie