More on Emotions

Just a comment. After having gone to XRoads this evening I've come to the conclusion that the thing that frustrates me about not being able to show my emotions very well or being able to let myself truly feel the negative emotions is two things. First that then the highs aren't as high b/c you never experience the low--that sounds pathetic, but I don't want to live life half way and sometimes it feels like I am. And second that if you can't let others know that you're feeling terrible they can't comfort you. The most alone feeling in the world has to be standing in a crowd of people who are mourning and to look uneffected but be dying inside. To have people think that you must be either unfeeling or just really really strong. To have no one realize that you may be the one in need of comfort the most.

It's easy to approach people who are crying b/c you KNOW that they need you. They need advice, comfort, something, sometimes even just your silent presence. But someone who isn't showing their grief is much harder to approach. There's this fear in ppls mind that the person is really just fine and then commit some kind of social error by trying to offer comfort and therein implying an emotional "weakness" that the person may not have. On the other hand the person who is emotional but not crying feels seperate and isolated and that resonates with the people who are around them and keeps them away. It's just depressing. Oh well, what can you do?

Subject for the future: A Heart That's Always True (from a country song I'm listening to right now...)